Retarded USC Girl

I am so fucking tired - I can't even begin to describe the state of mind I am in.

I had absolutely NO sleep Wednesday night, Thursday night I had just over an hour of sleep. Friday night I went to bed at 12:30 and woke up at 3. Went back to bed at 4 and up at nine. Back and forth. back and forth. I had to hold on the the shower wall I was so exhausted Saturday. Last night I went to bed around 3:30. It's just so sad.... I LOVE sleep so much.... and apparently... we are not meant to be together. :(

I feel achy and exhausted.... so terribly sleepy.... it reminds me of this book I read back in HS or Middle school called "The Cheerleader" where this vampire could suck the life out of people and they would be all mopey with no energy and I am like "wow. I need to reread that book... i would really feel for those bitches now".

Ah, enough moaning and bitching....

Bowen is talking up a storm now apparently. Larry said he brought him something and he said "thank you, DaDa", Yesterday was "Mama day", He says "radio", When asked if he is ready to go to bed... he said "not yet". All together now... "Awwwwww". Shit like that just makes you smile.

So Mothers Day came and went without any fanfare. It is usually a tough holiday. I miss my mom. But this weekend was good... I guess. Her birthday is coming up - May 21 and then the day she died - May 31. I wish i could get to that point where it is just another day.... but it isn't. It just sucks... ah, such is life.

posted by Ashlyn @ 8:33 AM