Retarded USC Girl

Have you ever been really very happy with things in your life.... except for like one thing... and that puts a hole in your boat.

It is like you wake up and you dread going to work.... only imagine that even when you are sleeping... you are at work. You cant escqape it. then you have dumb meetings and stupid ass events all the time... and everything good about the job is buried in a flavorless void.

So you wake up today like every day... only it has been building.... and you realize that with every passing day... you hate it more.

Hate is an odd thing.... it builds and rolls inside your stomach.... and makes you hate everything outside so much that eventually the hate starts to radiate within.... and when you get to that point that you hate the inside... where do you go from there?

I'll tell you where...

You find the source of all that bullshit in your life.... and you narrow it down.... and you realize, "Fuck. it's my job and the bullshit that surrounds it..." and then you look at viable options for alternatives. and the hate of your current situation is still there... but not killing you.... because you see the horizon.... and at the very least, you have an answer to a question you've been asking yourself since August.

..... and you cant help but smile inside.... through the bullshit and through the hate.... because you can see it coming to an end. It's a new year.... new beginnings and new ends.

posted by Ashlyn @ 11:56 AM