Retarded USC Girl

Wow... I am absolute shit when it comes to updating. It would be easy to say "nothing has happened lately... so no need to update...." but that is not quite the case.

For the first time in a long while, I feel like the fog has lifted and whatever funk I have been in is slipping away. It's almost invisible now. :) It's definitely a good thing.

I quit my job. I think this is my penis showing game. If you are not familiar with the phrase... then I guess you have never seen Waiting (which is a sincerely kick ass movie). A penis showing game is that thing that you find that makes you happy and takes away some of the bullshit... if only for a while... it makes your life more bearable.

So, apparently my penis showing game is leaving my job at research and running a hotel. It's a small one. 35 rooms. It has a manager's apartment. The money is almost twice what I was making plus the lack of any living expenses makes the salary exponentially better than what I was getting. I just saw myself sitting at that desk and thought "Am I going to do this for the rest of my life....??? Get paid for a 36 hour week with no room for advancement???" I dont think I could have worked for and with nicer people... I had some fun everyday, but I think that sometimes the very best thing you can do is walk away - even from a good thing... to find your penis showing game.

And so here I am with lots of free time and i will be able to start taking classes so I can get admitted to a PA program.... ahhh, GRE here I come.

I dunno.... the odd thing is that for the first time in a very long while, I feel like I am really on the right track. I want things and I see a clear path on how to acquire them. It's a very very good place to be. I dont think I have been this happy since before Mama died.

anyway.... im off to grab a few winks of sleep.... unless of course, something good is on tv. :)

posted by Ashlyn @ 11:27 PM