Retarded USC Girl

unfamiliar places
getting the last word in just before the buzzer
some imaginary score board in my head
small victories
then those who freely give u the victory
take away the game
the score baord fades a little
the numbers dim
the totals merge
and u r involved in a new game now
a game where people take on ownership
not of scoreboards
or last words
but of each other
to lose that something that makes u human
to have that given to u
handed to u freely
as a gift
a package to unwrap slowly
to savor the contents
that u never worked for
and to wonder why u r deserving
to hold some small thing in your hand...
a trinket
but one u wished for and wanted
and to see that it was handed to u freely
and to wonder why
and to realize that u are winning the battles
and losing the war
but some wars... some wars you want to lose.

posted by Ashlyn @ 11:05 PM