Retarded USC Girl

people change.

It is inevitable. Some of us change for the better.... some for the worst. I like to think that the changes that have occurred in my life have been for the best. I have a "real" job, working and living in a new city far from home, in a circle of friends that I adore and is expanding. I am happy. What more could I ask for?

I look and see my friends and others around me.... some turned to drugs or alcohol along the way. Some turned into the person they wished they could be... and so they are now someone else... partially... like a cheap dress two sizes too small... covering the obvious, but the reality is visible even beneath the shroud. One stopped being fun.... and in the long run, I have to look and say, Damn.... I guess some changed for the worst.

and what's the point of this entry or the point of whole line of thought anyway? well, quite simply, I am just thinking back over the years, and I am wondering how one person can change so completely.. to the point where you wouldnt recognize him/her if you passed in a crowd. I am not really talking about physical changes here... but emotional or personality changes.

I am just as retarded as I have ever been... maybe more so. I am fun to the core.. like Maxwell House... good to the last drop. All in all, I am just as I have been. So here is the thought.... when someone changes so completely that they are obviously not the person you once knew... what do you do? For me, as this happened pretty recently with an old friend... you mourn the loss of the person you knew.... and that mourning process starts the moment they begin to morph into this person that is someone else entirely. So, by the time this person is out of your life, there is no void. There is no vacany. They are merely the strangers on the street... in Target parking lot who forget to wave.

Isn't it funny how through all of the changes we experience... some things remain the same. Some people will always remain the same... and that is the best part. Your colege friends will move on and marry... so will your high school friends... and a choice few of them will always be just as fabulous and lively as you remember them. Those are the friends that you live for. :)

posted by Ashlyn @ 8:50 AM