Thursday, October 16, 2003

What's coming through is alive.
What's holding up is a mirror.
But what's singing songs is a snake
Looking to turn this piss to wine.

They're both totally void of hate,
But killing me just the same.

The snake behind me hisses
What my damage could have been.
My blood before me begs me
Open up my heart again.

And I feel this coming over like a storm again.
Considerately.

Venomous voice, tempts me,
Drains me, bleeds me,
Leaves me cracked and empty.
Drags me down like some sweet gravity.

The snake behind me hisses
What my damage could have been.
My blood before me begs me
Open up my heart again.

And I feel this coming over like a storm again.

I am too connected to you to
Slip away, to fade away.
Days away I still feel you
Touching me, changing me,
And considerately killing me.

Without the skin,
Beneath the storm,
Under these tears
The walls came down.

And the snake is drowned and
As I look in his eyes,
My fear begins to fade
Recalling all of those times.

I could have cried then.
I should have cried then.

And as the walls come down and
As I look in your eyes
My fear begins to fade
Recalling all of the times
I have died
and will die.
It's all right.
I don't mind.

I am too connected to you to
Slip away, to fade away.
Days away I still feel you
Touching me, changing me,

And considerately killing me.

It is amazing how one band can simply and honestly move me. god, I love TOOL

I am feeling run down and tired today.... potential side effect of the mono i guess. I need some R and R. I am gonna teach Mo how to play the best drinking game ever "Rush Hour" I have also heard it referred to as "Bow Tie". It is a retarded Beirut line up without balls .... just straight drinking challenge ... fun stuff... 15 shots per triange;... 1 triangle per player... 6 traffic jam shots... 3 p[er player.... and 2 chug cups... 1 per player. Needless to say.... you get fucked up.... fairly quickly.

I am so ready to get off work at 5... get out of class at 6:45... and haul ass to Savannah to party... just to let loose and stuff... god I cant wait!

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Wednesday, October 15, 2003

it was raining earlier... raining pretty hard... but it was nice ... i was just sorta standing out there in it.... and i saw a member of the swimteam running to get out of the rain... and an odd thought corssed my mind: "shouldnt he be used to being wet..."

A guy just walked out of the lab and told me good luck.... i think I might need it... I am posting a blog though.... I guess I look intent and determined. who knows....

MO makes my life bright. She is hillairous. I had a wonderful night with her. We are going to Savannah Thursday night. It is gonna be a weekend of debauchery for the books, i am sure. A hotel room... a lot of alcohol.... and no one to post bail. :)

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Tuesday, October 14, 2003

Mental note: stop poisoning yourself. Really gonna try.

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So you mosey around in a daze..... and you stop trying for the things yoiu relaly want. This is a bad example... but its like you quit attempting or striving for anything and you wait for the world to fall into your lap. You let things.... and more importantly... people... pass you by.

There is a gnawing anxious pain in my stomach like.. i feel i have forgotten to do something.... or I need a cigarette or coffee or want a laxative and I have no idea whcih one it is.... none. So I could do all of the above I guess until satiated.

I yawned and tears came to my eyes.... that always happens. I get off work in just over an hour.

OH I have NEWS: Melissa and I.... are going to.... DRUM ROLL PLEASE...... SAVANNAH for the weekend. We are gonna eat, Drink, drink, drink, drink, drink, drink, and be merry. we need to just get away from cola --- see a new bar scene.... relax and get shitfaced. :)

Two CAROLINA girls.... loose in Savannah for the weekend.... a whle lot of liquor just calling our names.... oh yeah, its a party to go. :)

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I bet he thinks he is cool... when he is actually most likely the biggest dork I know. I used to think he was cool.... that is of course, until the wool was lifted from my eyes and I began to see the obvious.

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Monday, October 13, 2003

consider me moved : http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com

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quote of the day: "I can mend the break of day, heal a broken heart, and provide temporary relief to nymphomaniacs" -larry lee

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I have spent the better part of my day plotting evil things to do to a friend.... mainly because it will be fun.... does this mean I am no longer a lady? ;)

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Monday, Monday....

It's fallbreak and I am here at work.... but I dont mind. i really like this job... wish I liked the other nearly as well. My plans for the day are really quite simple... work until 5... then go home, put on a pot of coffee, get into a plumeria bubble bath.... then put on pajamas and watch tv and lounge until i cant stand being unproductive anymore.

I love my new pajamas... I love all pajamas. I was making a list of my fave things in this world... and here goes...

-pajamas
-coffee
-ToTo (my teddy bear)
-chocolate
-hugs

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