Thursday, April 08, 2004

Sometimes..... doing the right thing for you and the overall right thing are different. VERY different. I dunno... It is like I can tell myself a million and one times that I need to say something or do something... or more aptly... stop doing something.... and does it ever really work? No. I am stubborn. I dunno.... this will sound like I am rambling....but here goes....

You can take friendship and change it.... and not call it something different.... but it is different "friendship" is just a word. It is like using a blue crayon. and you know it is blue and the whole world knows it is blue.... and then you add some red wax to it.... but you still call it blue.... when it is really purple. You can insist away that it is merely blue... but it is not. Dont get me wrong.... purple is not a bad thing.... and chaing relationships is not a bad thing either.... I just think you have to sit back and evaluate your position..... because before you know it.... you will be writing a paper in the middle of the night and realize... "Holy Shit.... this isnt blue ".

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Wednesday, April 07, 2004

We found it... perfection of sorts. 3000 square feet, 4 bedroom, 2 and a half baths, game room, pool table, ping pong table, atrium, just a great great house. it is really spectacular. I can picture me in that house. :) Mom has really come around about me having male roomies... she thinks now that it is a safety issue not a booty issue. :) And believe me.... right she is!

So Daddy has been offered a job in Iraq. He is all excited. He tells mother that it will be a great experience... yep, I have always longed to be mutilated myself. He says he needs the excitement. This from a man who gets worked up over Super Nintendo. He says the money is great. 75k tax free for 3 months work. Heidi Fleiss was also in it for the money. He says it is a good cause, to serve his country. I guess soldiers never die... until they are shot or pummelled with explosives. It worries me. I like to think that when I lay down at night... my parents are safe in their beds and comfortable in their lifestyles. I like to imagine that safe warm image of them. It scares me to think of my daddy in a warzone.... even afraid at times.... I have learned that adrenaline fades... and in that void we see the fear we chose to mask. I am deeply proud of him too. To know he is indeed a great man, an honest man, a kind man, a patriotic one as well.

Above all... this remains... I LOVE my daddy. he is wonderful... and amazing.... and a great example of what a man should be..... spoken like a true Southern girl, I know.

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