Wednesday, February 18, 2004

So last night, there was a fire in the dorm... yep, you heard me right... or I guess you read me right. haha. Everyone is ok. There was no real damage. Just a little smoke and a long wait in the cold. But then the calming realization that you cna handle some pretty extreme situations. Fire ina dorm... that is old and laden with asbestos.... and things were fine and jobs were done and the situation was taken care of....

So also today I am in a good mood because things are falling into place somewhat. I mean... school n classes are still scattered n stressful and midterms are approaching and they are going to be hard.... but my personal life and friends and such are wonderful. I am having fun.... enjoying every today and anticipating every tomorrow.

The stress comes in the form of group projects that approaching their deadlines and exams that are starting to rear their ugly heads.

I want to go home this weekend. I want to sleep in my bed and see my cat and squeeze him. I want to spend time with my parents and with my friends in hampton. I miss time with my parents... the little stories they forget to tell me because they dont see me everyday and the little details that I think are funny. You never realize how much you miss something until you have it only briefly.

I ate a slim jim about 2 hours ago..... I am still tasting it.... it is like spam in a stick... only a million times better. lol.

Today has the promise of being a good day. :)

posted by Ashlyn @ 12:07 PM 0 comments

Tuesday, February 17, 2004

so you wake up one morning and you finally say outloud what your soul has been screaming. You have lived out each day with a twinge of regret in your stomach... wondering why, thinking about it.... and then you finally acknowledge it. So the good news is this.... I fully admit that the love of my life got away..... and I have regretted it always.... and I know I will live with that twinge of regret for a long long time....

The head says things: Learn from this and move on....
The heart says things: you idiot... turn back the hands of time.... speak your mind.... do not hold back.... if there is such a thing as "THE ONE"... he is it.
Reality says things: just let it go... move on.... there are more fish in the sea... if it was meant to be, it would have been.... get over it.
The 2/3 majority rules and you agree to let it go..... but some things are so much easier said than done.

You look at past behavior and realize something.... new standards.... that if you were to write out ten different personal ads... you woudl describe that one person 10 different ways...

Live Boldy.... the world of what ifs and regrets just sucks.

posted by Ashlyn @ 1:08 PM 1 comments

A lot of tension and stress this week... work and school related ya know.... I think this weekend I am going to opt for a full body massage..... the best hour you can possibly spend.

posted by Ashlyn @ 11:50 AM 0 comments