Retarded USC Girl

;) I have to just sort of sit back and review things... and in looking, I really like what I see. in some situations... despite all my desire to do the contrary.... I took the high road... and a little effort and a little class go a long way. It is nice to be able to look back and say "I am proud of me".

My friends are absolutely amazing! I love all of yall! Josh -- u r the shiznit... I am gonna rape u as soon as u come n visit. Chris -- u too ;) ;) One thing that I love about my friends... they are mine first, longest, best, and last. Their loyalties reside with me... and mine with them. Its a nice feeling... a comfortable feeling.... and one that you dont just fall into, but work towards. I trust my friends --completely. These are the ties that bind.... and you cannot break them with a million words .... the heart heals all wounds and reinforces all bonds.

...and an important lesson: life goes on.... and we dont write our life story in erasable ink.... but the sidebars we do... we can erase the problems and fix them and go on living.... living better, living longer, and living more.

;) SMILE LIVE HOPE FAITH LOVE WANTS NEEDS DREAMS FRIENDS FAMILY SURPRISES

:( PAIN FEVERS BROKEN PROMISES LIES MEAN HURT DEPRESSION ANGER DESPERATION --- these are :( typically... but not really. pain -- makes u appreciate health.... Fevers do the same. Broken promises amke u appreciate the ones that are kept.... lies --- make u appreicate truth, and sometimes are necessary.. Mean... I dunno why, but it makes me appreicate the nice times... and makes it so much easier not to care for someone when they so blatantly do not care about you. Hurt.... makes you appreciate comfort.... and those who never outwardly strive to twist a thorn in your side. Depression -Depression gave us great poems and great songs. ANger --same as last... and it relieves stress and makes you feel so much better.... Desperation -- some of my best work has come when I was desperate for an idea.... desperation is not the bottom of the barrel -- it is the effort it takes (that overdrive) that keeps you from hitting that bottom.

but the very best --- the absolute very best -- those friends... the few that stand out n shine brighter when you are the darkest ---and they give u pity sex because they think u need it.... those are my faves ;)jk

posted by Ashlyn @ 2:43 PM 0 comments

Its funny how in the midst of chaos n confusion.... you can find clarity....

posted by Ashlyn @ 12:59 PM 0 comments

so.,.... let me just say that life has a tendency to be wierd and very coincidental. I am often left wondering WTF is going on. it's not that I am overly naive or oblivious or anything.... but well --- life just shocks the shit out of me sometimes. So, let me give some examples.... ok one huge example.

-Talk to someone in chatroom.... find out he is good friends with a sister.
-Sister talks to me.... she has a bf in the Econ PhD program
-I thought about it... and he sounded rather familiar
-So i log onto my Yahoo messenger
-Find the guys profile...
-There is a pic of him and aforementioned sister.
-This guy ahd helped me pick out some classes in the past... seeing as how he would know which professors to take lol.

eerie.... no. odd - yes. I swear to god... my internet world is overlapping with hardcore reality and before i know it... I am gonan seee my ass morph into a monitor. How damn sad am I.

On other occassions...
I have been talking to a friend from freshman and sophomore years... and neither of us realized it.... and on yet another occassion, i was talking to my next door neighbors great grandson. Completely by accident... this shit is cool... yet wierd... and makes me wonder how small the vast little internet really is. I mean are there really liek just maybe 100 people... ok lets say perfect gross including perverts 144 people who chat on yahoo.... and we all just mix n match up in different rooms.... is that what is going on?

posted by Ashlyn @ 12:04 PM 0 comments