Retarded USC Girl
Saturday, September 13, 2003
Weekends are lovely. The game today ---- i am being positive... so I will just say this.... it was fun to watch... maybe we didnt win... but it wasnt a shutout. Both teams played hard... one just looked better doing it. How hot was that GA QB? hello!
tonight my hair is shorter than it has been in a very long time.... and blonder.... I kinda like it though..... didnt think I would liek the length... but its ok.
Watching scary movies and eating Zeros (a low carb M&M substitute) with vanilla icecream. It was a good day. it is a good night.
Some weekends are just lovely.... and this ... this is one of them. It feels good to be home.
tonight my hair is shorter than it has been in a very long time.... and blonder.... I kinda like it though..... didnt think I would liek the length... but its ok.
Watching scary movies and eating Zeros (a low carb M&M substitute) with vanilla icecream. It was a good day. it is a good night.
Some weekends are just lovely.... and this ... this is one of them. It feels good to be home.
Friday, September 12, 2003
I am pissed off. I have already added this in more of an essay format to the rants section.... but it is plaguing me now.... so here goes...
Training... they wanted to instill in us the idea that it is expected for us to be awesome... innovative, creative... responsive to the needs of residents.... they told us to be original... to break the caging molds.... I was honestly somewhat inspired.
Now, I look back at that and see those ideals were just words. they sounded good... hell they sounded GREAT Be inventive... Do something great this year. i forgot to read the fine print that read "when following our agenda" an agenda, I might add that is misguided.
They force us to use a form of technology that is virtually worthless. They make us use it .... in our classes in our jobs. It is stupid... it is outdated as hell... even after the most recent revamp. the worst part is that their new crusade for this campus wide system internet based network is that it isnt used.... so lets stir up some MANDATORY usage. The goal si to find a way to inform the technologically advanced student body.... only the technologically advanced student body hates blac--- ehh, I mean "this".
I can even tolerate that.... what I cannot tolerate is that I am supposed to spread messages of good will adn encourage others to use this while I smile and say hwo much I love it. that, honestly, i refuse to do. Because that takes away doing something great and being innovative. I would rather lose my job that be a sell out to this new "regime". It is so militant.... lol
I will not endorse something I hate to use and clearly do not believe in. I just wont do it. I know that marketing is my major.... so i could sell it.... but I wouldnt.... marketing may be my major..... but ethics hold a dear place with me.... once you lose that..... all else is lost.
Training... they wanted to instill in us the idea that it is expected for us to be awesome... innovative, creative... responsive to the needs of residents.... they told us to be original... to break the caging molds.... I was honestly somewhat inspired.
Now, I look back at that and see those ideals were just words. they sounded good... hell they sounded GREAT Be inventive... Do something great this year. i forgot to read the fine print that read "when following our agenda" an agenda, I might add that is misguided.
They force us to use a form of technology that is virtually worthless. They make us use it .... in our classes in our jobs. It is stupid... it is outdated as hell... even after the most recent revamp. the worst part is that their new crusade for this campus wide system internet based network is that it isnt used.... so lets stir up some MANDATORY usage. The goal si to find a way to inform the technologically advanced student body.... only the technologically advanced student body hates blac--- ehh, I mean "this".
I can even tolerate that.... what I cannot tolerate is that I am supposed to spread messages of good will adn encourage others to use this while I smile and say hwo much I love it. that, honestly, i refuse to do. Because that takes away doing something great and being innovative. I would rather lose my job that be a sell out to this new "regime". It is so militant.... lol
I will not endorse something I hate to use and clearly do not believe in. I just wont do it. I know that marketing is my major.... so i could sell it.... but I wouldnt.... marketing may be my major..... but ethics hold a dear place with me.... once you lose that..... all else is lost.
WEEKEND PLANS:
essentials:
-pedicure
-manicure
-hair cut
-hair highlighted
I just feel like I have been living like a damn barbarian. Need some primp time.
Also I am excited --- going to Rosewood Market after work. :) it is like an awesome soy super center.... and we know how I love my soy!
essentials:
-pedicure
-manicure
-hair cut
-hair highlighted
I just feel like I have been living like a damn barbarian. Need some primp time.
Also I am excited --- going to Rosewood Market after work. :) it is like an awesome soy super center.... and we know how I love my soy!
.... and a thought that tickled me this morning "the door has been peppered with announcements. I peppered the door. I dont know exactly what peppered means... but it just rolls off the tongue. I peppered the door". ADORABLE!
*Illegitimati non carborumdum*
I have been at work for 4 and a half hours today.... only 4 and a half more to go. Nice to be middle of the road. Last night we went to college night. It was OK... like as far as the festivities.... the company was AWESOME. :) I swear, I love my friends.... and their friends.... and I finally got to meet Anita's BF Ryan. Ryan's friend looks like Mario Lopez and I could stand to be saved by the bell, if you know what I mean. Thank god I didnt slip and call him Slater.
We all came to the conclusion that we are not strange- penis -rubbing -on- your- ass- fans. Hence, dancing at the club was out after about a 45 minute attempt. What is up with random dudes just like grabbing your hips and shaking his shit on your ass? It's like they should be aware that is not kosher. Try shagging (the SC state dance) now that is a dance any man is welcome to do..... its hot. Girating like a little velvet elvis all up on my derriere is just not appreciated. Jessica, stef, and Anita concur.
Last night was bareass bologna toss. I think orthodox jewish people should have the contention that Gualtneys bologna is not kosher... therefore they are being alienated from competition. That is my reason for not participating. Granted, i am not Jewish.... not really anything.... but its my reasoning.
Which I like matzo... I must admit.
Boy Drama Update: not sure quite what to say other than this.... "there are players among us"..... not to say that I dont enjoy the game. ;) I dunno..... unusual turn of events.... like i think people ... boys in general assume girls want these committed long term relationships.... first of all... never assume... and I am not like most girls. :) What is so wrong with just wanting to have fun? I am not talking about prostitute kinda fun..... but just dating around ya know.... seeing more than one person at a time. makes soooo much sense to me.
I have been at work for 4 and a half hours today.... only 4 and a half more to go. Nice to be middle of the road. Last night we went to college night. It was OK... like as far as the festivities.... the company was AWESOME. :) I swear, I love my friends.... and their friends.... and I finally got to meet Anita's BF Ryan. Ryan's friend looks like Mario Lopez and I could stand to be saved by the bell, if you know what I mean. Thank god I didnt slip and call him Slater.
We all came to the conclusion that we are not strange- penis -rubbing -on- your- ass- fans. Hence, dancing at the club was out after about a 45 minute attempt. What is up with random dudes just like grabbing your hips and shaking his shit on your ass? It's like they should be aware that is not kosher. Try shagging (the SC state dance) now that is a dance any man is welcome to do..... its hot. Girating like a little velvet elvis all up on my derriere is just not appreciated. Jessica, stef, and Anita concur.
Last night was bareass bologna toss. I think orthodox jewish people should have the contention that Gualtneys bologna is not kosher... therefore they are being alienated from competition. That is my reason for not participating. Granted, i am not Jewish.... not really anything.... but its my reasoning.
Which I like matzo... I must admit.
Boy Drama Update: not sure quite what to say other than this.... "there are players among us"..... not to say that I dont enjoy the game. ;) I dunno..... unusual turn of events.... like i think people ... boys in general assume girls want these committed long term relationships.... first of all... never assume... and I am not like most girls. :) What is so wrong with just wanting to have fun? I am not talking about prostitute kinda fun..... but just dating around ya know.... seeing more than one person at a time. makes soooo much sense to me.
Thursday, September 11, 2003
Sometimes you try to be patient, and you try to see the good in all people.... but at the end of the day, all you are is pissed that some people are nowhere near as nice or as fucking competent as they should be.
Enough bitching.
I am smiling because life overall is good. Dan (Stef's man) is coming up this weekend. Which, in real terms makes me sit there n think... where is all of my boy drama? OH then that leads me to thoughts of last night and the goddam cowboy. Do NOT put your fucking hat on my head in the bar.... I am not interested... AT ALL. I try to be nice. I try to leave him with some shred of an ego.... but I can only do so much.
Back to Dan. Dan hates sorority girls. He has never met me. He is only left to assume that I am indeed an airhead bimbo with no discernable smidge of a grasp on reality and off of daddy's wallet. (ok so parts of that were sadly accurate). Our plan is this.... tomorrow.... when I meet Dan... I will be as absolutely "hollywood sorority" as possible. I mean greek as a gyro. I am serious. I am laying the sorority smack down and the gloves are off. I am gonna toss the hair and laugh. I am gonna say "like" and "OMG" and be ELLE WOODS (my idol!!!). It should be just enough to drive him over the edge. I am gonna use the phrases "gang bang" and "I havent taken it in the ass in a while". It's gonna be great. I am gonan cheer and do songs... and everything in my world will just be sorority this and sorority that... and a whole hell of a lot of pink.
Part of the fun of being Greek is having that ability to go over the top and exploit it to prove a point. It's gonna be fun!
Anyway... i am gonna stroll on off to class in a bit. I have walked all over damnation today... I am serious.
Oh--- ironic twist of the day: met a guy named James who is living in the Roost and is really good friends with Buddha's old Nick. I was like OMGing it for real.
*divine apathy, disease of my youth, watch that you dont catch it*
And a note to Whitman.... the dead past does indeed bury its dead. You forget details and faces and phone numbers.... and its an amazing feeling.
Enough bitching.
I am smiling because life overall is good. Dan (Stef's man) is coming up this weekend. Which, in real terms makes me sit there n think... where is all of my boy drama? OH then that leads me to thoughts of last night and the goddam cowboy. Do NOT put your fucking hat on my head in the bar.... I am not interested... AT ALL. I try to be nice. I try to leave him with some shred of an ego.... but I can only do so much.
Back to Dan. Dan hates sorority girls. He has never met me. He is only left to assume that I am indeed an airhead bimbo with no discernable smidge of a grasp on reality and off of daddy's wallet. (ok so parts of that were sadly accurate). Our plan is this.... tomorrow.... when I meet Dan... I will be as absolutely "hollywood sorority" as possible. I mean greek as a gyro. I am serious. I am laying the sorority smack down and the gloves are off. I am gonna toss the hair and laugh. I am gonna say "like" and "OMG" and be ELLE WOODS (my idol!!!). It should be just enough to drive him over the edge. I am gonna use the phrases "gang bang" and "I havent taken it in the ass in a while". It's gonna be great. I am gonan cheer and do songs... and everything in my world will just be sorority this and sorority that... and a whole hell of a lot of pink.
Part of the fun of being Greek is having that ability to go over the top and exploit it to prove a point. It's gonna be fun!
Anyway... i am gonna stroll on off to class in a bit. I have walked all over damnation today... I am serious.
Oh--- ironic twist of the day: met a guy named James who is living in the Roost and is really good friends with Buddha's old Nick. I was like OMGing it for real.
*divine apathy, disease of my youth, watch that you dont catch it*
And a note to Whitman.... the dead past does indeed bury its dead. You forget details and faces and phone numbers.... and its an amazing feeling.
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
Tonight is a Crocodile Rocks kinda night. Mo and I went shopping this morning, and i came back and napped until noon... thereby missing my first class. I really like that class too... so I am gonna have to talk to kevin about that one. I get off work in like 20 minutes, and I would like to go home and grab some dinner (croc pot tacos) .... but I need to go to class tonight... Yazel.... however, he does put our notes on blackboard... and I could stand to skip out on it.... I AM SO PATHETIC! I have already missed one class I should really step it up and make it to my last one. Ok. Ok. I am so going.
Jimmy and I took some pictures last night. Now that was fun indeed. I would like to go to Savannah with Mo.,... we totally need to go to River Street. We could have an insanely good time. We have discussed this.... as she has never been... so my theory is -- no time like the present.... but this is my only weekend off... next 2 weekends are closed weekends and I cant leave town and then the next two after that I am on duty. HELLO!!! Where is my social life gonna be! Ugh that really really blows. 4 weekends... an entire fucking month stuck in columbia in the damn dorm for the weekends. I am gonan end up half blind n retarded.... cause some freaky shit will have to go down aorund week 3... i am not sure how much of that I can take.
I get off work in 13 minutes now! woo hoo.... then off to fucking class I go. I am ready for tonight! Larry MY BROTHER (now the model.... hahaha he's too sexy for his hat to sexy for his hat) is coming to see me. We are going out to crocs with james. it is gonan be fun fun fun and Mo is going too!! YAY!!
Ok, let me say Blackboard --- not precious!
-:)
Jimmy and I took some pictures last night. Now that was fun indeed. I would like to go to Savannah with Mo.,... we totally need to go to River Street. We could have an insanely good time. We have discussed this.... as she has never been... so my theory is -- no time like the present.... but this is my only weekend off... next 2 weekends are closed weekends and I cant leave town and then the next two after that I am on duty. HELLO!!! Where is my social life gonna be! Ugh that really really blows. 4 weekends... an entire fucking month stuck in columbia in the damn dorm for the weekends. I am gonan end up half blind n retarded.... cause some freaky shit will have to go down aorund week 3... i am not sure how much of that I can take.
I get off work in 13 minutes now! woo hoo.... then off to fucking class I go. I am ready for tonight! Larry MY BROTHER (now the model.... hahaha he's too sexy for his hat to sexy for his hat) is coming to see me. We are going out to crocs with james. it is gonan be fun fun fun and Mo is going too!! YAY!!
Ok, let me say Blackboard --- not precious!
-:)
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
It has been relaly quiet at work today. I have been looking at job listings... you know, on the ball and ready to pack up after graduation. I need a good job. Like prostitution is ok if i HAVE to do it.... but I would prefer to just use sex as recreation, if you know what I mean. I dunno. I have seen some jobs listed that are indeed appealing.... but it scares me when so many people I know are struggling to find jobs.
See college is supposed to teach us about personal poverty. Granted, my parents take care of me (and i appreciate it!), but after college we expect to roll in the money.... like strip naked and stop drop and roll in a pile of fresh 20s. The more I look at starting salaries.... the more I fear 26K a year is only gonna offer me a pile of nickels to bask in.
Ahh well... I get off work in 20 minutes and I am keeping the faith that a real job will come my way.....
Fuck man,.,... I really need to clean my room tonight.
See college is supposed to teach us about personal poverty. Granted, my parents take care of me (and i appreciate it!), but after college we expect to roll in the money.... like strip naked and stop drop and roll in a pile of fresh 20s. The more I look at starting salaries.... the more I fear 26K a year is only gonna offer me a pile of nickels to bask in.
Ahh well... I get off work in 20 minutes and I am keeping the faith that a real job will come my way.....
Fuck man,.,... I really need to clean my room tonight.
And so dawns a new day....
I stayed in bed for a long time this morning. I wasnt exactly tired, but relaxed. I would just lie there and stretch and snuggle in the blankets and pillows. I wanted to be lazy. Lost in thought, I just stayed there.... dreaming in that half awake state. The sad part is that I was fully intent on going to class... and I did. It was a great class. I sat there for an hour and 15 minutes and was truly impressed by the lecture. I think it is probably dorky to say that I LOVE ECONOMICS. Like, I am not gonna get that bumper sticker made or anything, but I do love the theory and study of it... the practice of it, however I will most likely not parlay into a career goal.
So I laid in bed.... in sponegbob pajamas.... so sassy I know... my hair too curly.... no makeup... and I got up and looked in the mirror. My hair was everywhere.... my eyes were just glazed over.... but I was smiling. When I noticed that, i had to laugh.... some days are just meant to be good days.
*Eric.... u rock my world. Thanks for being so awesome and taking care of things at the desk!
*All the 108 boys rock my world!
I stayed in bed for a long time this morning. I wasnt exactly tired, but relaxed. I would just lie there and stretch and snuggle in the blankets and pillows. I wanted to be lazy. Lost in thought, I just stayed there.... dreaming in that half awake state. The sad part is that I was fully intent on going to class... and I did. It was a great class. I sat there for an hour and 15 minutes and was truly impressed by the lecture. I think it is probably dorky to say that I LOVE ECONOMICS. Like, I am not gonna get that bumper sticker made or anything, but I do love the theory and study of it... the practice of it, however I will most likely not parlay into a career goal.
So I laid in bed.... in sponegbob pajamas.... so sassy I know... my hair too curly.... no makeup... and I got up and looked in the mirror. My hair was everywhere.... my eyes were just glazed over.... but I was smiling. When I noticed that, i had to laugh.... some days are just meant to be good days.
*Eric.... u rock my world. Thanks for being so awesome and taking care of things at the desk!
*All the 108 boys rock my world!
Monday, September 08, 2003
I should be studying for a quiz that I have to take at 5:30. Its like almost 4 now.... but let's be honest... I am a huge an of studying... no. I am getting ready for tonight though.... I am going to South Tower. Our membership Mania Party is tonight. It will be sooo nice to see the girls collectively for a change.
I need gossip from Rober n Shull anyway.... gotta get the dirt on "Ashlyn n the KA". hahhaha
I made it to FallOut n the after party,.... n I must say that I enjoyed both.
I saw mother n daddy sunday --- they are too fabo for words. OH My brother was approached to be a model. :) How precious is that, i ask you.
I had bacon with breakfast today.... and I am now inspired to watch Babe tonight.
OH Seth started in the game Saturday.... and played liek the last 4 plays.... and totally kicked ass. go COCKS!!!
My boys next door... and upstairs are fabulous!!! Lancaster = good people.
Ok, I am gonna go and study now.... be still my heart.
Work until 5
class until 7
Delta Gamma @ 7:30
:)
nice night
I need gossip from Rober n Shull anyway.... gotta get the dirt on "Ashlyn n the KA". hahhaha
I made it to FallOut n the after party,.... n I must say that I enjoyed both.
I saw mother n daddy sunday --- they are too fabo for words. OH My brother was approached to be a model. :) How precious is that, i ask you.
I had bacon with breakfast today.... and I am now inspired to watch Babe tonight.
OH Seth started in the game Saturday.... and played liek the last 4 plays.... and totally kicked ass. go COCKS!!!
My boys next door... and upstairs are fabulous!!! Lancaster = good people.
Ok, I am gonna go and study now.... be still my heart.
Work until 5
class until 7
Delta Gamma @ 7:30
:)
nice night