Saturday, January 07, 2006

I am sleepy. James is coming to Tennessee tomorrow! I am so excited. It will be really nice to get trashed with a familiar face. lol. Tonight, Julie came over. We has dinner and then we went bowling with her little girl, Josalyn. We had a good time. I totally fucked up my thumb. I am such a bad bowler.... like I mean BAD bowler... but I had a good time. We are gonna kick the detailees asses when they get here.

I am gonna go to bed. My cat is hiding because company is here... Julie and Jos are asleep on the couch... Queen of the Damned is still playing... I LOVE that movie. I am getting a headache... nothing a shot of Absinthe wont cure.

oh- try putting HotSex in your hot cocoa... so damn good. Anyway... Good night everyone. sweet dreams.

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Friday, January 06, 2006

James is coming up here for a month! I am so excited. James is a cool cat. I have a feeling that the posts are gonna be very interesting once THE "RICK WILDER" is in town lol. James is my cool brother... although we are not actually related. I am sleepy... so off to bed I go. OH -I was propositioned to be in a porn. I will update on that tomorrow lol. good times. good times.

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Thursday, January 05, 2006

So.... a new day dawns.... and it sucks just as bad as yesterday. Man, I am turning into the standard pessimist. This is scary lol. My job is aggravating me. So STRESSful. I hate when people won't call me back. It bothers the piss out of me. I am like... "good lord people. Here i am... call me. call me". I am thinking about going back to being a phone sex operator. Tons of money... work from home. super easy. I may do it.. as a full time job. Wouldn't that be lovely. You make like 24 bux an hour. It's good money and it is fun work lol. Hmmm.. I may have to do it lol.

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Tuesday, January 03, 2006

So... I am at one of those impending crossroads where you look at your life and you really have to wonder if you are doing what you love? Are you really living life? Would you settle for less money and more happiness or more money??? Are you settling? What are the absolute dreams that you want to pursue? When is it time to call it all quits and just deal with the life you have created for yourself? Sure, everyone would love to be the next Tom Cruise (professionally... not the whole "I am a weirdo personally " vibe that he gives off) or Kate Hudson.... but eventually, most of us throw in the towel and decide to be an accountant or a school teacher. And when your job gets to the point where you really hate it.... the absolute mundane day to day of it is like a hammer banging your skull... what do you do? what can you do?

SO that is where I am sitting. I am wondering if I am living my best life. Am I playing it safe? And when does safe become too safe? I like the drama of my life when things are in an uproar. I like the idea of who I could be if I lived like I want to live.

I want to be THAT girl. The one most people talk shit about... I want to have a heart that actually beats between the moments that matter. I want to live for the next random hook up and the next new job. I want to be happy.... but to do that, I have to accept being afraid of the uncontrollable variables in my life... I have to offer that little bit of control that I have up to chance... and I really believe that I am willing to do that.

This could get interesting!

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