Friday, January 30, 2004

So... on breathing and smiling.... its not a bad thing... I have just been in a perpetual state of shock.... jaw on the floor... eyes wide.... like a straight guy's first night in prison. People can shock the shit out of me. It's like you have convinced yourself that "he is the good one of the group..." you know, really well behaved... not like the aggressive whore his friends are.... then you find out you were wrong.... and you are shocked... cant help but be shocked.... and realize that your perceptions are not accurate, merely a representation of what you want them to be. You realize in the end.... that you are in fact, a very very naive person.... but I would rather have faith in people and be naive ..... and on that note: GO MARTHA!!!!!

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So sometimes now I have to remind myself to do two things.... smile and breathe. So far, I havent passed out while typing this... so i am at least doing the latter.

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Wednesday, January 28, 2004

Ok.... so perhaps I need to elaborate on events that have come my way...

great quotes: "Do you get this relaxing feeling when you do that, but when you stick it in too far, you cough?" - Melissa


On a completely different note lol...

Sometimes the things you think you need.... or think you want.... when you are faced with getting them.... you realize that you dont want them.... or really even need them... i am becoming increasingly aware of this..... and on some levels... it scares me. When in life, will i ever be satisfied.... truly fulfilled?

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Tuesday, January 27, 2004

Yesterday and last night were interesting to say the least. School was cancelled yesterday.... but RAs were still on call. Lovely. Mother and Daddy came to take me to dinner Sunday evening. It was good to see them. They always make me feel better. Classes are in full effect today, but I may not go to German.... I want Melissa to come over since her power is out. It is like a damn ice storm. We need to go rent movies... buy some popcorn.... and more oatmeal. Man, I am an oatmeal whore as of late. I swear... I am not a big oatmeal fan... never have been.... but the Quaker Fruit n cream variety pack is amazing!

Funniness: Jeff brought me back to the dorm at like 3am.... Officer Jamison looks at me with this curious yet thrilled look on her face and says "girl. there aint no shame in it. no shame in it at all!".... I fear she thinks I am a prostitute or on a botty call or something??? lol. funny stuff.

Tonight we need alcohol, cocoa, oatmeal... snacks, etc. It is a snow party! wooo!

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