Thursday, September 16, 2004

I am a bitch, but for all intents and purposes of this blog, I am an honest bitch. Ok, so here goes... why is it, that we dont talk to someone for a while... and we are fine... and then the minute you are in their presence, it is like a switch goes off... and you can't get them off the brain. Ugh so annoying. The person that I want to be - I am trying to be - every day, a little. And it is working, slowly, but surely.... who knows, in 15 years I may be off cigarettes.... and in 20 years off crack ;)

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Tuesday, September 14, 2004

I saw the nastiest thing I have ever seen today... well in a picture anyway.. psoriasis. It is disgusting. It was all over this woman's body. Down her chest... on her arms.. on her face. GROSS. I am weird like that.... I can look at a hundred pictures of smooshed, decaying, decapitated bodies.... and I find them thoroughly interesting. How did this happen? What did the accident physically do to the body? cause of death? how much trauma can an organ/body really take? But I have seen two pictures that freaked me out....

1. the guiness book champ for the most clothes pins on his face. DAMN disgusting. I don't know why it freaks me out.... blood and guts are fine.... but so many clothes pins clipped to his face and eww.... I am out!

and 2. the psoriasis picture.

This is not to say that I wont google some more pics like these.... but I have an honest reaction when I see them.... it is something about deformities of the skin or something. Like the clothes pins... all these wooden pieces sticking out of the face..... and the psoriasis... all these red bumps and lumps just sticking off the skin's surface. NASTINESS. I think it has something to do with my childhood lol. I had chicken pox... in a beard on my face.... virtually no where else... and it repulsed me.... even though I was able to stay home from school and play Atari... it grossed me the fuck out. I think this may stem from that. Damn, I am such a weirdo.

I have the heebie jeebies just thinking about it.

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Sunday, September 12, 2004

I worked ALL day Saturday,,,, 12 hours @ the health care center.... that is the thing about consolidation - in theory it sounds easy, but the reality requires a dozen grunts to spend the weekend sorting, packing, unpacking, and riding around in wheelchairs in the lobby. It is over time... which I appreciate... I think I will use the money to get my nails done.... since I broke 4 of them yesterday. :)

So today is Sunday.... and what have I done? pretty much nothing constructive... just relaxed! sooo nice.... I finished my dinner from yesterday for lunch today.... watched Inside Out on Live with Regis n Kelly.... I told you before I was a VH1 whore... and now Buster is being cradled in my free arm and lap because he decided he needs affection. I think we all feel like that some times...

but when i need affection, i put on a short skirt, and a "sleeps well with others" t shirt. hahaha

Oh and here is something that bothers me.... for dinner last night, I really wanted BBQ

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